Honestly, when I think about this part of our adoption journey, I continue to be totally blown away! I am amazed at how VISIBLE God’s hand has been in leading us to our daughter. I feel so blessed that I will be able to share this miraculous story with her, with all of its intricacies, as she grows. I pray she will come to realize and trust just HOW MUCH she was wanted and is loved by us, but more importantly, how much GOD loves her, and how He brought us together.
Shortly after we decided to pursue our daughter’s file, I found out what the English translation of her Chinese name is…..Siberian Elm Tree. When I heard this, my heart knew my connection to this little girl was more than just ‘a feeling’. God blessed me with confirmation that this child was meant to be our daughter.
My name, Tamara is Russian for Palm Tree.
Coincidence??
Whether you come to motherhood through pregnancy or adoption, I feel God chooses our children for us, they just enter our lives differently. I believe God paved our road to our daughter, with all its twists, turns, bumps, hills, and glorious ‘neon signs’. My first thought was that His provision was in place when our daughter was found and she was given her special name. Then, my mind was filled with, could all of this have been in place even before I was given my name; before I was even born??
My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
Psalm 139:15, 16
In our hearts, this is further proof that God gives just what we need to keep us going. To not only guide us, but encourage us to keep waiting, to keep following, to BELIEVE He IS THERE in all this, and to continue to trust in His plan. As always, He doesn’t force us to listen or follow; that always comes down to our choice, based in faith and trust.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9
In addition to guiding us NOW, we will have all that has transpired to draw upon in the future. Who knows what difficulties may lay ahead. Our little girl will require multiple procedures to address her SN. His visible presence in our lives now, provides strength we may need down the road as well.
OK, do you have goose bumps over all this, or is it just me??
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
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4 comments:
Goosebumps here girl!
Wow, I'm just so happy for you, and your new daughter. Hurry up, China!!!
Love, and happy Birthday to your big boy!!
Barb
Goosebumps here as well.
I remember when we first started our process to adopt I awoke one morning and said to my husband, "Her name is Hannah." I have no idea where this came from. I'd never even considered this name when we were expecting our son's. I didn't even know a Hannah. I just knew her name was Hannah. Not being able to shake this I happened to stop at the bookstore that afternoon. I thought I'll look for a book about Names. When I looked up Hannah the meaning said, Gift from God. I lost it right there in the bookstore.
God is so Good!
Congratulations Tami! We're so happy to hear about your daughter! I agree that it feels as though these plans have been in the works long before we even knew what we wanted :) Chase certainly feels like the son we were meant to be matched with. Looking forward to hearing and reading more about your process from here on out! Congrats again!
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